tek's time, thoughts, and stuff

hrm lets see, today i opened the store i worked at for the first time.. everything was going smoothly till i tried to call the person that was supposed to tell me where the bank was, so i could deposit the money from the previous day and get some change for the store.. something was wrong with their phone.. ends up being their phone was turned off, soooooo i got everything else done except for the deposit and change. but erm.. i guess the real reason for this blog today is for everything below:

I really care about someone, sometimes caring for someone is more than just love, if you don't understand that, ask the exboyfriend or the exgirlfriend that still stands by your side and supports you when they can, or sometimes they go that extra mile for you, they can give you the answer you seek.

Of course not all the answers are gonna be the same.

I dunno how i can tell this girl how much i care about her, i just keep telling her no matter what, in love in friendship whatever, i just want to be there to support her, be there for her. I hope she knows it.

i also don't mean it in that sick twisted stalker way 8P or the perv molesting type of way. (you sick people!!!)

today was full of surprizes! full of events. i'm not gonna go into much detail..

today i learned something

the courage to throw myself out at someone

and deal with doubt. you won't know till you ask right? or rather won't know till you find out.

I went to the park today.

I told someone i love them.

and then i went home to watch a movie with someone special to me,

Someone that will always hold a place in me, a very special place

I love life, its always full of surprises, full of changes, full of people and their different ways of fitting into the equation. i don't mean it in like the green peace loveydovey kind of way, i guess i adore the challenges, in a sick twisted way.

its like a sick addiction, almost sadistic sometimes.

but to be able to live on daily, to fight those battles.

yep yep.. I love this girl, shes a million miles away from me and shes 1 person that would shine out of a million gazillion other peoples.

But ""I""(yeah stress and yell the I, i know ya can) L O V E H E R.