thought

what can you do when your millions of miles away from someone you cherish?
someone you love.
someone you would die for.
How can you ask and offer yourself like that to someone you've never held hands with.
someone you never actually hugged.
someone you never breathed the same air from the same room with.
Its rather simple when you just think of it.
the heart, rather the love for someone.
the way someone does something.
the way someone is / acts.
the way someone talks.
the way someone loves / cares.
the way someone eats.
the way someone reacts to something.
but why? its rather all twisted or something
i guess if money was easy there would not be problems like, millions of miles away.
then it would just be up to time.
I love this girl thats millions of miles away from.
I face the reality that we're far apart every day.
I fight for this girl every day.
How do i tell her i just want to support her?
I just want to be able to be there for her however i can be
however she needs me
I'm happy just talking to her
watching movies with her
staring at the ceiling with her
looking at the sky with her
putting puzzles together with her
playing games with her
watching her just be her
we may never meet
we may find true bonds elsewhere that is physicaly near us.
but i still love her, no matter what
i face reality everyday i know the chances of us finding each other and holding each other are small.
knowing that, i still love her i don't live my life day by day denying the chance for love
but i still love her knowing that

at the same time i feel like i'm being selfish though. what am i doing to her?
even though i know i'm okay with whats going on.
I can't, i just wonder...... i dunno... the thought is incomplete
I love her, if she let me go.
what would it mean?
what would happen to us?
what defines Distant love?
i just want to bust through the wall
I love her.